On this morning, twelve years ago, I had my newly born daughter in my arms. After a crazy few days, going into premature labour {35wks}, having the contractions stopped and restarted a few days later. Having a drip fitted and then induced – and nine hours later, she was born. She came out naturally, with her tiny little hand placed on her cheek and the cutest pink rose bud lips. Not a peep left those lips either, she was the quietest little thing. I guess the journey was pretty tough {and tiring} for her too.

I remember needing some stitches {downstairs – the joys!} and she was carted off to the S.C.B.U. It’s a weird feeling having that happen. Going through the pain and emotional roller coaster that is having a baby for them to be taken away. Even more upsetting was finally being well enough {I lost over a pint of blood following delivery} to go back onto the ward – babyless. 

Thinking back it was gut wrenching truth be told. Your body had all the signs there that you had given birth, yet you had no baby to show for it. Other new Mums had their babies and mine was down in S.C.B.U, alone. I was too poorly to be by her side and that upset me all the more.

I recall through my fever spikes and sickness {any form of hospital medication renders me useless} one of the midwives bringing me a photo of my baby girl. She was wearing a cute little preemie beanie and I wanted to hold her so badly. It wasn’t until later that evening that I was well enough to be taken to see her – I was wheelchair bound because I couldn’t walk {due to the blood loss}. But as soon as we entered her room, out of all the little preemies, I found my girl in a heartbeat.

She was over by the window, getting all the natural light her little body needed to chase away her jaundice. She weighed 5lb 6oz and even though she was so little she looked so much bigger than the other S.C.B.U babies.

I wasn’t allowed to hold her. She had all kinds of wires coming from her and all I heard around her were beeps and other machine noises. She was mostly fine, just a little early and needed some monitoring. Her jaundice got worse and she required two sessions of phototherapy and it took 3 days before I could hold my baby girl in my arms. It took a further two weeks for her to be well enough to come home.

Fast forward 12yrs and I have this hilariously funny, dark & twisty and creative tween on my hands – with a witty nature and a pre-teen attitude brewing and bubbling in the background. We’ve had a taste of that attitude and God help us when it becomes fully formed. Hormones & all!

At twelve, Ellie loves to draw, listen to her music, snapchat {her latest thing} and Instagram. Her face is never far from her mobile phone, she loves visiting the ice-cream store after school on a Friday with her girlfriends. She hates doing laundry, loves roast chicken dinners and if given half the chance? Would eat BBQ ribs every day for the rest of her life.

She is a gaming fan, plays World of Warcraft, a few Steam games i.e. The Escapists & Goat Simulator. She rarely watches regular TV because it’s all about YouTube these days. She’s almost the same height as me {which isn’t hard} and can often be found wearing my shoes too. On top of all that, she is a huge animal lover and hopes to be a zoo keeper one day and has a real passion for Science. She got 93% in her Year 8 Summer exams and also came out as the highest mark in the year.

I’m so very proud of my little girl, who isn’t so little anymore. She is funny, laughs at the oddest of things {she reminds me so much of myself}, she is talented, creative, amusingly dark and has an all round quirky with a side order of geek, personality. I love her so much and I honestly cannot believe she is 12, on the cusp of being a teenager. How time flies!

Happy Birthday beautiful girl!



  1. Lexi
    16/06/2017 / 6:56 PM

    Happy birthday to your daughter! She seems really lovely! You seem like an amazing mother 🙂

  2. 16/06/2017 / 7:10 PM

    Happy Birthday! I am only a mom to furbabies but my coworker always tells me, “The days are long but the years are short.” Time flies – hope she has the happiest of days and God Bless!

  3. 17/06/2017 / 4:59 AM

    Awe what a wonderful post! Hope your daughter has a wonderful birthday! Crazy how quickly time flies but one day she will look back and appreciate this memory you have shared :)!

  4. 17/06/2017 / 2:21 PM

    Happy Happy Birthday to your amazing daughter. It is hard to believe times flies by so fast.

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